It's been a while since i last updated my blog. It's maybe because I got tired and I don't know what's the reason why'd I stop. I did miss writing and sharing different stories that I have experienced in my everyday living. But oh well, now I'm back and I'm gonna start on a new and blessed experience that I have :)
Yesterday, 29th of August 2012, I went on a Midweek Gathering at River of God(ROG) Church. It was the best experience that I have and up until today, I am still blessed. Honestly, it was my first time and there were only a few people there that I knew but God gave me the courage to be there. I was so shy that I don't know what to do. My cell group leader keeps on telling me to be strong and I have to drive away that attitude of mine of being shy.
During the singing, which is praising God through singing, I feel like jumping and shouting the name of God but I didn't do it. I did regret on that, I kept on talking to the Lord and praying that hopefully that me, being shy, would go away. I really wanted to jump and shout like what I did when I was in high school, I really wanted to express myself, but I know that there would be that right time that I would go dancing, shouting and jumping in praising God. I've realized that I may be able to overcome this attitude of mine, maybe I wasn't comfortable but soon I will be :)
As the Midweek Gathering continued, Pastor Che gave us 5 confessions about prayer. Whenever she tells us of what number we wanted to confess, I didn't stand up. Due to "shyness", what I did was, I waited and listened to what were those confessions about prayer. The 5 confessions were:
1. I declare boldly that my spiritual life is taking a new turn!
2. Prayer is no longer lacking in my life!
3. I pray for at least 1 hour everyday.
4. No one understands me, however, in this spirit I speak mysteries to God.
5. Because I pray regularly, I do not yield to temptation!
Out of these 5 confessions, there is a confession there that really suited me, Number 4: "No one understands me, however, in this spirit I speak mysteries to God." The reason why I have related on the 4th confession is that it somehow relates on my life. No one can understand of what I am feeling in my everyday life. My friends don't understand me, my family and etc. I keep on talking to the Lord saying, "Lord, may they please understand me on what I am encountering and feeling right now."
Somehow, I've been down lately, maybe it's because of the problems that I have. I wanted to cry out to the Lord every second of my life but then, there's this verse that gave me strength. The verse was on Acts 3: 1-10 and the topic was entitled as "I AM NOT LAME ANYMORE, GET UP AND START WALKING". There I've realized that this verse would help me get up whenever I feel down. I felt that, God is there for me to help me stand up whenever I am down and cannot walk anymore. God is there for me and he is willing to help me no matter what.
And I told myself to never give up and never back out. It's time for me to be strong :)
God is so great that he enlightened my heart, and as for today, I am going to attend a cell group with my cell leader and with some friends. I know that God would want me to share the things that I have experienced yesterday, and I know that the Lord would be happy :)
